Lost.
So sudden that I’m lost. Lord, what should I do now?
None of me, all of You.
Complacency, resting in my abilities. Unacceptable. How can I forget the source of all these things? It was not of me. So if it is of me, nothing happens. He that had carried me through, will definitely bring me through it again.
To think of it, it is definitely better to trust in His unfailing love and grace for you, for you don’t have to make it happen. If it don’t happen, then it is not up to you to decide. It is He, so you don’t have to worry. But always remember, that it is His pleasure to prosper you and He will give it to you at the right time and place to make you feel so loved.
“Trust Him, not trust me.” Something I’ll always have to bear in mind. Daddy, bring it through again as I rely on Your amazing grace for me.
He delights in me.
That is the only reason why I have been blessed. He loves me so much and He delights in me. Through it all, He had been there. So faithful. Daddy, You had bring me thus far and I know You will bring me further. I may never get to comprehend the many things before me, it may seems uncertain. But the only certainty is You, Abba - unfailing love, that You gave me Your beloved child. You so loved me that You gave me your only beloved son such that I may receive the abundant life. The abundant life, not life of lack. Thank You Daddy.
How precious.
It’s amazing how when I look back, I see Abba’s hands in everything that had happened. I still remember how I dreaded changes. One of the change that I really dread was from DARE to ARROW. I remember how much I complained and how much I would racked up old incidents and just dwell in it as if it was happening. Well oh well, God is good all the time. Initially, the transition was totally unacceptable. Soon enough, I find myself blending with them. I enjoyed my one month with them. It was awesome, really. That it came to the point that one of my factors on how I chose my schools was according to the existing JCs in the CG. As desperate I may be, God will not allow desperation to take over what He had in stored for me. Now, I am here in a JC I never wanted and also a new CG. Thank God that the transition was smoother this time. I know that all shall be good and I am starting to see things in a different light. Thank God for everything.
How precious is it to be able to evidently see His hands in my life & His unfailing love for me.
(Source: spiritualinspiration, via smashednuts)
Believe it a not, a month had passed. I can’t believe it myself. I had been in Pioneer Junior College for a month. I won’t say it started out great but it had turned out really well. Something became really real for me at this present moment - a closed door is God’s way of saying “this is not for you and I have a better plan” and He will always open the other door for you and that door is the door for you.
Although, I don’t really know what is ahead of me. I am certain that He holds my future in His hand and nothing will go wrong. Well, it don’t mean that there will not be tribulations and adversities. These things will grow me. And I believe I will stepping out of this phase in my life as a woman that is confident in the Lord and who had grown to be that woman of God He had called me to be.
Though I cannot see it YET, but I believe it therefore I spoke. He who is faithful will not fail me.
Time to let go
As crazy as it seems, I’m the only one feeling this way. What should I do? What can I say? But offer this heart oh Lord, completely to You.
Can You Hear My Heart? 你能听到我的心吗？
Paranoid.
I had a dream. I dreamed that it is the day when I receive my posting results. I was staring at my phone intently, so afraid of the outcome. This dream cause me to wake up, thinking it was reality, I checked my phone. I off the airplane mode and waited for messages to come in. When reality sets in, it’s only the 25 today. How can it be that I will get my results today?
Reminder to self: God will not give me anything that I cannot handle. Because HE IS WITH ME, I am successful. The only criteria for me to be successful is because HE IS WITH ME. My path of the RIGHTEOUS gets brighter and brighter. Reason for having a bright future, because I am the RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD IN CHRIST.
Hey Lord, help me to let go whatever I should. Prepare my heart. You have not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, of love and of sound mind. Amen.
